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Wednesday, September 28, 2011 @ 12:13 AM
HAHA it's raining.
Like out of nowhere. In the middle of the night. At 12.13am. Wow.
But I like the rain. I think I have a certain affinity with water. For instance, the best songs I write are usually formed when I'm in the bathroom. Inspiration just comes when I'm in contact with water.
After the rain, there will come a rainbow. Perhaps this is God's way of comforting me, His way of telling me that tomorrow, no matter how daunting it sounds, will be a better day. Or at least, tomorrow will be a good day.
超级偶像,
Thursday, September 01, 2011 @ 11:46 PM
I was watching 超偶 just now on channel 111 and had the sudden urge to go on Youtube to watch 王崴宇's performance for next week.
So, I went online, watched his next performance (which was incredible by the way, there were honestly no faults I could find and the emotions were there) and was just stunned. Well, it made me want to watch his performance for the week after that, and like always, it was amazing. Although I admit he has done better in his previous 3 performances (which were completely faultless to me; this time some of his words were a bit forced because of the high pitch and rock feel), but it was still amazing nonetheless.
And then I go to the results video and guess what I see? HIS TEAM GETS ELIMINATED.
I swear I was hyperventilating in my chair when I saw it. And then when the judge said they were going to save one person from his team, I was just hoping it would be him.
AND THANK THE HEAVENS IT WAS HIM THEY CHOSE TO SAVE.
Honestly, I would have never really followed this show if not for him. Like I only started becoming interested in this show because I heard him sing 林俊杰's 背对背拥抱 during the 海选 rounds. That performance was bloody brilliant. And he's really the only reason why I actually bother sitting in front of my television every Thursday night. In fact, although I recognise that there are actually one or two better singers in the competition too, he's the competitor whose performance I look forward to the most every time. I recall being sad when I didn't see him on tv last week - last week's episode was apparently split into two parts, and the part where he performed was shown today.
Anyway, thank goodness the judges decided to save him. The bad thing is, now I won't get to see him for one episode because he will be directly sent to the top 15. A bit strange, but that's how it is on the show apparently....?
Sigh. Luckily the show has judges who can recognise potential when they see it. Otherwise, they would probably have lost a viewer~
王崴宇加油 ^^
imperfection,
Sunday, July 10, 2011 @ 12:45 AM
I honestly don't like bitching about someone.
In Crescent, I was hardly ever involved in serious bitching (I think bitching was limited to CIs/Ma'ams and how they were bloody unfair/irritating sometimes), but now that I'm in JC, I find that bitching is actually very difficult to avoid. My classmates bitch, my CCA mates bitch, and practically the whole school bitches about something/someone at every point of time.
And bitching is a fairly judgmental thing to do. Usually, when I coughbitchedcough, it was about personality or someone's actions or something. Here, people bitch about looks mostly. There's a lot of "did you see her face today", "I cannot stand the way he looks", "why does she act this way even though she's not remotely cute"... Honestly, I don't like it at all.
I mean, why do people judge one another based on external appearance? I get that it's the first glimpse of a person we get and hence it forms the first impression, but why do people always let their first impressions decide everything? I realise I may be a hypocrite for saying this, but nowadays I try my darnest to not judge people on appearance anymore.
So what if a person doesn't look half as good as you do? Not everyone in the world is blessed with such pleasant looks. I mean, if everyone looked amazing, no one would. Not even you. Why do you look down on other people just because they have crooked teeth/slanted eyebrows/too much hair on their arm/fleshier thighs/big feet? Why do you judge people based on the way they look? Why judge people at all?
I know the last question is probably difficult to answer; judging people happens all the time and has become such a natural thing to do that it is almost inevitable in daily life. But why judge based on looks? Why look at people and label them "pretty", "handsome", "hot", or "ugly", "nerd" and "gross"?
Personally, I think that to measure a person's beauty, we have to look much deeper than the surface. Sure, you may be "hot" on the outside, but is that of any use if you're lazy, don't have anything in your brain, or just plain ignorant? Is your definition of "beauty" of any use if the person you're labeling as "beautiful" makes fun of others, despises the "non-beautiful" ones or judges people quickly? I don't think that'll make you much of a person.
On the other hand, people who are much more... intelligent than others, have probably a heart a million times bigger than the "beautiful" ones, and are far more hardworking, aren't even looked at twice. Why? Because they are "not beautiful" enough for society's standards.
Anyway, who are we to deem what is "beautiful" and what is "not beautiful"? Who drew that line between "beauty" and "not beauty"? Do we even have the right to tell someone that he/she is not beautiful? Who are you to say that someone is not beautiful?
In fact, the dictionary explanation of "fat" is - having large amounts of excess flesh. It never mentions anything about "ugly" or "repulsive" or "imperfect". So who said that "fat" was a derogatory word?
I suppose society made the distinction. "Beauty" has lost it's meaning - in fact it has been replaced by society's cruel, biased version of it. If you take it at it's literal sense, I guess "beauty" would mean that a person would have to be aesthetically pleasing/have some kind of physical charm, but this "beauty" has overshadowed "true beauty".
In my opinion, a truly beautiful person is one who has the greatest personality, who doesn't let himself/herself be affected by other people's harsh words, who isn't afraid to stand up for what he/she believes in, and who never gives up. That, is what it means to be truly beautiful.
I don't think anyone in this world is truly ugly (in terms of appearance, at least). According to the dictionary, ugly means "unpleasant or repulsive, esp. in terms of appearance". Nobody in this world can be repulsive, appearance-wise. It's quite hard to achieve that, and the people who are probably thrown into this category usually have a inner beauty that far outshines others' external beauty.
If you must call someone ugly, call the people who bully others/abuse others/make fun of others/look down on others/stomp on other people's heads to get to where they are/judge people unfairly/break hearts on a whim ugly.
Because perfection has become something that everyone pursues, no one is perfect anymore. It's difficult, I know, but if everyone just accepted everyone for who they are, don't you agree that everyone would be much happier? Stress would occur a lot less.
So to all you people who judge and joke at other people's expense, please look at yourself in the mirror first. Who are you to tell others that they're not beautiful and you are? Is your definition of "beautiful" the right one? What if you follow the other party's definition of beautiful? Will you be "beautiful" then?
Just remember this: no amount of make-up will ever make you pretty if you have an ugly heart.
拥抱那么多起起落落,
Friday, July 01, 2011 @ 11:12 PM
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
只留我迂回的徘徊
So yeah. I should be doing drama annotations now but I honestly cannot bring myself to remove the paper from my file, so I'm going to do last minute chionging later at 11.30pm or something.
Terms are almost over! Other than ELL, which I left out the whole of transitivity, I think everything was quite manageable. Except maybe Chinese compo. Stupid me picked the wrong pen to use and ended up having a major hand-ache, which probably affected my Chinese compo. And I think I wrote out of point. Oh well. Lit was alright, but sadly, I don't think my essays are worthy of a B grade. Maybe a C? :/ Math was okay, may have screwed up 2 questions but other than that it was fairly alright.
GP... HAHAHA OHYEAH I FORGOT THE MEANING OF 'COPIOUS' I WENT TO PUT 'DUBIOUS' HAHAHA IDK WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME LIKE WTHECK HOW CAN I FORGET SOMETHING LIKE THAT????
I honestly have to learn how to keep my mouth shut. Now that I've told someone, I CANNOT, for the life of me, keep my thoughts to myself anymore. In the past, when I didn't tell anyone, I could just... suffer in cruel silence, but now... I have this overwhelming urge to tell her everything HAHA. Geez, you'd think I'd have learnt by now.
In other news, so many squadmates have become CIs! Naomi, Jaymann, Jasmine, Ammani... And I think Lim Min is going soon too. That's practically 1/4 of the squad. For a squad that kind of didn't really like CIs that much (at first, like before we took over), I think our cadet-to-CI rate is quite high, isn't it? Makes me wish that sometimes I had gone to join the CI course.
OHWAIT. I kid. I don't really want to spend 4 weeks or something in Ubin burning to death. My medical condition probably wouldn't let me be a CI anyway. The cadets would probably be tougher than me.
In other other news, LIN JUNJIE IS DAMN TALENTED I HAVE NOTHING BUT PRAISE FOR THE GUY (other than his YOG song, which I'm sure wasn't his fault because it was probably edited/modified/controlled/dictated like Rebecca Black's Friday). Every single performance he gives is completely mind-blowing. His live singing is as good as his CD recordings, and not many artistes can achieve that. And he writes beautiful lyrics and musical compositions, and plays the piano so damn well ^^ I'm trying to locate his '100 Days' album and his '她说' album, but the Popular at Compass Point doesn't have it. May go other places to look for it :) Super in love with all of his songs.
Chinese A-level oral on Tuesday! Hope I don't fail/just pass/get a merit. I need a distinction :/ If I don't get an 'A' for the actual A levels, I will retake. And if I want to retake and get an 'A', I'd better get a distinction for oral ._.
OH AND I MADE PROPS MANAGER! Not exactly crew manager, but all the same, I'm glad I applied. Now all that's left is maniAC to worry about...
Okay. It's 11.30. Going to go annotate my drama thing like a good DEP kid.
Cheerio :)
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱
别告诉他， 我还想他,
Thursday, June 23, 2011 @ 10:23 PM
原来最疼痛的表情 竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面 可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地
跟着我 难分难离
原来最孤单的是我 还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我 不能面对自己
你 收的干净
我也会 不留一点痕迹
- 原来， 林俊杰
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Monday, June 20, 2011 @ 4:04 PM
MY NEW AMBITION IN LIFE IS TO WORK AT DISNEYLAND, ANAHEIM, CALIFORNIA ^^ CAN YOU BELIEVE HOW AMAZING THAT WOULD BE??????
Damn, so jealous of Hali Gaskins now; can you imagine how it would feel like to work at Disneyland with your boyfriend (of 6 years, no less)!!!!
Alright, I've found my life's true calling. Disneyland, here I come.
both a little scared, neither one prepared,
Thursday, June 16, 2011 @ 12:38 AM
I'm pretty sure I like you.
But then I'm pretty sure that I'm not that sure that I'm pretty sure I like you.
Confused yet?
but if you walk the footsteps of a stranger,
@ 12:24 AM
So I got a relatively good score for Theasthai. Quite pleased with myself; never thought I would get this much. 12/15 for actual performance and 14/15 for process work, which brings my total to 26/30. I think Theasthai definitely increased my self-confidence a little. At least I know now what performing solo on stage feels like.
Rachel Quah, Siok Ling, Charmaine Chong, Vivian, Naomi, Myra, Annabella and Eindra came for Theasthai. OH AND KELLIE TOO HAHA I WAS SO SHOCKED TO SEE HER BUT SHE SAID SHE WANTED TO SURPRISE ME :) such a great friend; I'm really glad I met her in primary school.
And well... Lately I've been feeling as though JC probably wasn't the best choice for me. I don't know, I just have this feeling that one day I'm just going to collapse under everything and suffocate and by then it'll be too late to pull myself up the hole that I just dug. But like I said, it's just a feeling. Nothing concrete.
That's that for now. Hope I meet my target for terms :)